This page is the doorway into my Five Gate Pathway five keys that shaped my healing and my work: Responsibility, Ownership, Retraining, Presence, and Return. As you move through each gate, you’ll see my story, what I’m teaching, a gentle practice, and journal prompts so you can walk your own path as you read mine.
Theme: I choose what I carry, and I can choose again. | Branch: Responsibility | Mantra: I release what I inherited. I choose what I become.
I turn “why me” into “what was I agreeing to,” and I choose again with awareness.
When I take responsibility, I take back my power.
I reached a moment when I could not make sense of my life. I asked God, “If you love me, why would you allow so many painful experiences?” In prayer I heard this: “You came to Earth through two energy sources your parents. They carried fear and trauma, and they taught you that fear and trauma. You accepted it as truth. You trusted it. You used your power to create from it. It was not punishment. It was permission.”
In that moment I realized I was not a victim of God. I was powerful and my power had been agreeing with old lessons. So I took responsibility. Yes, I came through those energies. Yes, I accepted those teachings. Yes, I carried them into adulthood. And because I am responsible, I can choose again.
God, thank you for showing me that I was never abandoned. Thank you for the power to choose again. I bless the people and the places I came through. I return what is not mine. I accept a new lesson. Let my thoughts, my words, and my actions agree with truth today. Amen.
One step today: Send a kind message to yourself, or set one boundary that honors your peace.
I choose one step todayI will never forget the moment I asked God why I had spent so much time in a relationship that never became what I hoped for. I saw such beauty in him. I saw potential. I saw what he could be if he ever reached the level I imagined for him. I hoped he would choose me. I hoped I could help bring out the best version of him.
None of that happened.
I felt hurt and disappointed, and I asked why I stayed so long. The answer was clarity: I chose what I saw in my mind instead of what was in front of me. I dated the potential, not the person. I saw truth, but ignored it. I tolerated what did not honor me. That was not God’s decision. That was mine.
Ownership entered my life right there. When I accepted that my choices shaped my outcome, I also accepted that new choices could shape a new future. Ownership did not shame me. Ownership freed me. Ownership returned my power to me.
God, thank you for the clarity that frees me. Thank you for showing me that ownership is not blame but awareness. I bless the choices I made, and I bless the new choices I am making now. Guide my heart into truth, and guide my steps into alignment. Amen.
One step today: Make one choice that honors the reality you see, not the hope you once held.
I honor truth todayI move from either-or into honest both-and. I teach my mind a new pattern through attention and consistent practice.
What you repeat with feeling becomes familiar. Make truth the thing you practice most.
I had a season of abundance and then a season of lack. I asked my mentor how he became so close to God. He told me a story that changed my life: God asked, “What would you give up for Me?” He answered, “Everything — even money.”
When God asked me, “What do you want — Me or money?” I said, “You,” and my money went away. Later I realized I never had to choose. God is everything. I retrained my mind from either-or to both-and: I can have God and provision. I can have God and wholeness. My mind learned a new path, my choices matched it, and my life followed.
I bless my past, and I release what is not mine.
I am powerful. I can choose again.
I can hold God and provision without fear.
My mind practices both and, and my life follows.
God, thank you for showing me that I was never abandoned. Thank you for the power to choose again. I bless the people and places I came through. I return what is not mine. I accept a new lesson. Let my thoughts, my words, and my actions agree with truth today. Amen.
Choose one both and action. Speak one affirmation, budget one wise choice, or send one message that matches peace and provision.
I took my step
I have gifts that allow me to travel in spirit. I visit the past, I visit the future, and I listen for those who have gone on. I noticed that the people I was helping were growing quickly. They were evolving and receiving breakthroughs. I asked God why my own goals were not moving at that same pace.
In prayer I heard this. You spend much time in the future and much time in the past. Your life is unfolding in the present. Come back here. Minister to yourself here. Give thanks here. Choose here.
When I began honoring the present moment, my manifestations started showing up faster. What I spoke over my life appeared more quickly because I was finally home to receive it.
I practice being present, and the Presence meets me there.
God, thank you for calling me back to myself. Thank you for teaching me that the present moment is holy. Let me breathe, return, receive, and walk in truth today. Amen.
Stop for two minutes, breathe, and choose one gentle action that honors this moment.
I took my stepI remember who I was before fear, and I bring that self forward with love.
Return is not going backward it is going inward. Alignment over memory. Power comes home.
Return did not come through one moment or one revelation. It came through everything God had shown me across all the gates. Every lesson, every healing, every shift. There came a quiet realization: before I learned fear, struggle, or pain I already knew good. I already knew peace. I already knew abundance. That was my original state.
Return awakened the day I said, “I don’t have to have this. I don’t have to live by what I inherited.” I remembered that before there was trauma, before there was confusion, before there was resistance there was God, and there was good. And I could return to that original space. Not by pretending. Not by pushing. But by remembering.
I return to the truth of who I am.
I release what fear taught me.
I choose the original version of me.
I return with power, clarity, and peace.
God, thank you for the remembrance returning to my spirit. Thank you for showing me the truth that existed before my pain. I return to my original peace, my original joy, and my original identity. Let everything I do today agree with my return. Amen.
Do one thing that aligns with the version of you that existed before fear. A smile. A breath. A choice. A boundary. A truth.
I honored my return
